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Those who knew Crow as Uldren Sov more intimately, such as Petra Venj and [[Jolyon Till]], noticed that Crow is much friendlier and more humble in comparison. However, Petra would find it hard to fully accept Crow due to the painful memories of his past as Uldren Sov. While Crow would try to reach out and befriend Petra, she would rebuff him and keep him at a distance, which often confuses him. After finally discovering his past identity and the crimes he had committed as Uldren Sov thanks to the Witch Queen, Crow is left reeling and nearly disillusioned but would come to understand why so many were hostile to him and didn't seem to hold the Guardian who had executed Uldren any ill-feelings. Crow nonetheless seemed to both accept his past but nonetheless rejects it, stating that he is now a Guardian, and wishes to be judged by his current actions than that of Uldren's. As such, Crow has shown a great deal of enthusiasm in wanting to serve the Last City as a means to prove himself. Saladin would observe Crow as reckless, naïve and idealistic, which ultimately makes it difficult for him to accept tactics and methods he doesn't agree with such as keeping the Lucent Hive in a neither live-nor-dead state as they searched their minds for intel. Despite this, Crow is more perceptive than he appears as he was able to see that Mara Sov was attempting to manipulate him just like she would when he was Uldren. As his memory wipe freed him from Mara’s psychological conditioning, he sees her for what she really is and thwarts her attempts to regain control of him, and the tunneling device Mara planned to use to groom Crow further becomes infinitely more useful as one of the Young Wolf's many weapons.

Ultimately, Crow's emotional stability would be shaken violently after the Witch Queen revealed his past to him, all the way to his death at the hands of the Guardian. Though he wouldn't hold a grudge against them, his perception of himself would be distorted, as he struggled to come to terms with his past self and the crimes he committed as Uldren but would finally understand why he was given so much grief during his early days as a Lightbearer. His emotional turmoil would actually be strong enough to be felt by Caiatl's Psion envoy, stating to Saladin that Crow "radiates pain" ever since he learned the truth about himself.

Despite the clear differences between Crow and his former identity, the same individuals who knew Uldren well can see similarities in Crow's behavior and that of Uldren. Mara Sov would point out to the Guardian, after asking them to look after her brother, that Crow is prone to devotion much like how Uldren was towards his sister and him idolizing the Guardian is no exception. Further, like Uldren, Crow believes that the intent of his actions absolves him and others of accountability and consequences, which often makes others find it hard to work with Crow. Between nearly exposing himself during the assassination attempt on Zavala, repeatedly trying to shove Petra aside to try and reason with the Witch Queen, and accidentally killing Caiatl's best Psion, all of his superior officers have grown sick of drilling the same lesson into his head over and over again. It was ultimately after Saladin paid for his mistake that he seemed to understand the lesson Zavala and Saladin have been trying to teach him.

Crow's personal struggle about accepting his past self would reach a boiling point during ''Season of the Haunted'' where he becomes haunted by the Nightmare of Uldren. At first, Crow simply denied that Uldren was a part of him just as much as he was part of him, which led to moments of frustration, periods of violence and bouts of depression. It would become apparent that Crow's greatest fear was that he may be no different than Uldren Sov, telling lies and getting innocent people hurt. As such, he felt utter shame that Uldren was part of him and thus wanted to "rip him out" of himself but this mindset is what led to the first severance ritual to fail. Eris Morn would console Crow, stating that the Nightmare of Uldren is his own personal truths, that it is only as strong as he makes it. Further, he can't fight his Nightmare with a knife but must endure and accept it's words.

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 Those who knew Crow as Uldren Sov more intimately, such as Petra Venj and [[Jolyon Till]], noticed that Crow is much friendlier and more humble in comparison. However, Petra would find it hard to fully accept Crow due to the painful memories of his past as Uldren Sov. While Crow would try to reach out and befriend Petra, she would rebuff him and keep him at a distance, which often confuses him. After finally discovering his past identity and the crimes he had committed as Uldren Sov thanks to the Witch Queen, Crow is left reeling and nearly disillusioned but would come to understand why so many were hostile to him and didn't seem to hold the Guardian who had executed Uldren any ill-feelings. Crow nonetheless seemed to both accept his past but nonetheless rejects it, stating that he is now a Guardian, and wishes to be judged by his current actions than that of Uldren's. As such, Crow has shown a great deal of enthusiasm in wanting to serve the Last City as a means to prove himself. Saladin would observe Crow as reckless, naïve and idealistic, which ultimately makes it difficult for him to accept tactics and methods he doesn't agree with such as keeping the Lucent Hive in a neither live-nor-dead state as they searched their minds for intel. Despite this, Crow is more perceptive than he appears as he was able to see that Mara Sov was attempting to manipulate him just like she would when he was Uldren. As his memory wipe freed him from Mara’s psychological conditioning, he sees her for what she really is and thwarts her attempts to regain control of him, and the tunneling device Mara planned to use to groom Crow further becomes infinitely more useful as one of the Young Wolf's many weapons.
+Ultimately, Crow's emotional stability would be shaken violently after the Witch Queen revealed his past to him, all the way to his death at the hands of the Guardian. Though he wouldn't hold a grudge against them, his perception of himself would be distorted, as he struggled to come to terms with his past self and the crimes he committed as Uldren but would finally understand why he was given so much grief during his early days as a Lightbearer. His emotional turmoil would actually be strong enough to be felt by Caiatl's Psion envoy, stating to Saladin that Crow "radiates pain" ever since he learned the truth about himself.
 Despite the clear differences between Crow and his former identity, the same individuals who knew Uldren well can see similarities in Crow's behavior and that of Uldren. Mara Sov would point out to the Guardian, after asking them to look after her brother, that Crow is prone to devotion much like how Uldren was towards his sister and him idolizing the Guardian is no exception. Further, like Uldren, Crow believes that the intent of his actions absolves him and others of accountability and consequences, which often makes others find it hard to work with Crow. Between nearly exposing himself during the assassination attempt on Zavala, repeatedly trying to shove Petra aside to try and reason with the Witch Queen, and accidentally killing Caiatl's best Psion, all of his superior officers have grown sick of drilling the same lesson into his head over and over again. It was ultimately after Saladin paid for his mistake that he seemed to understand the lesson Zavala and Saladin have been trying to teach him.
+Crow's personal struggle about accepting his past self would reach a boiling point during ''Season of the Haunted'' where he becomes haunted by the Nightmare of Uldren. At first, Crow simply denied that Uldren was a part of him just as much as he was part of him, which led to moments of frustration, periods of violence and bouts of depression. It would become apparent that Crow's greatest fear was that he may be no different than Uldren Sov, telling lies and getting innocent people hurt. As such, he felt utter shame that Uldren was part of him and thus wanted to "rip him out" of himself but this mindset is what led to the first severance ritual to fail. Eris Morn would console Crow, stating that the Nightmare of Uldren is his own personal truths, that it is only as strong as he makes it. Further, he can't fight his Nightmare with a knife but must endure and accept it's words.
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