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==<tt>FIRST CALLING OF THE HIDDEN, ANNOTATED</tt>== | ==<tt>FIRST CALLING OF THE HIDDEN, ANNOTATED</tt>== | ||
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I feel the need to ground my commentary here with anecdote. | I feel the need to ground my commentary here with anecdote. | ||
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eternity of fire, to burn poor Chalca to a temporary, smoking smear and laugh at her astonishment...<br> | eternity of fire, to burn poor Chalca to a temporary, smoking smear and laugh at her astonishment...<br> | ||
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What Wei Ning did was punch me in the head so gently that I only got a concussion. I do not advise<br> | What Wei Ning did was punch me in the head so gently that I only got a concussion. I do not advise<br> | ||
this as a way to destroy the self. But as an analogy, it is useful.</span></small><br> | this as a way to destroy the self. But as an analogy, it is useful.</span></small><br> | ||
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::When you have located your self, destroy your self. Grip<br> | |||
::your self like a hand shaking a hand, find the weak places,<br> | |||
::and squeeze. Throw your self at yourself like a rising<br> | |||
::tide upon an ancient fortress. Do not stop when your<br> | |||
::soft places are eroded. You must continue until nothing<br> | |||
::remains. In this manner, you will gain two vital ''gnoses'': the<br> | |||
::revealed knowledge of your own strengths and failings,<br> | |||
::and the practiced knowledge of how to reconstruct your<br> | |||
::self when destroyed.<br><br> | |||
::In one Gnostic tradition, our universe is the creation of<br> | |||
::Barbelo and Sophia, whose mimicry of the Unknown<br> | |||
::God's emanations gave rise to Yaldabaoth, the lion-headed<br> | |||
::serpent. Yaldabaoth the Demiurge crafted our world and<br> | |||
::the Archons that rule it in mimicry of the true spiritual<br> | |||
::world, which is called pleroma. Upon creating humanity,<br> | |||
::Yaldabaoth declared itself the truth creator, unaware that it<br> | |||
::itself was only a mimic of the Unknown God.<br><br> | |||
::The key understanding here lies not in the fabulism, nor<br> | |||
::even in Yaldabaoth's failure to destroy itself and reveal the<br> | |||
::truth, but in the relationship between the Gnostic tradition<br> | |||
::and the Book of Genesis. This Gnostic tale comes before<br> | |||
::the traditional Genesis, totally recontextualizing it—even<br> | |||
::destroying it. In retaliation for this transformation, the<br> | |||
::Gnostics were destroyed by more orthodox faith.<br><br> | |||
::We cannot understand ourselves unless we know our<br> | |||
::own origins; and we cannot accept our origins unless are<br> | |||
::willing to destroy ourselves.<br><br> | |||
:'''4. Shed thy self.''' | |||
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When I battled Madhir, he tried the same trick as Azirim. But I simply became someone else. I<br> | |||
do not mean that I pretended to be someone else. I mean that I allowed Madhir to change me into<br> | |||
someone who Madhir could not tempt.</span></small><br> | |||
<small><span style="color:#735c99;"> | |||
I laugh much less since that day. But I am more content.</span></small> | |||
::Rub at the thin, dry outer parts of yourself. Crawl shining | |||
::and wet from that outer husk.<br><br> | |||
::All misjudgement is caused by the failure to shed the self.<br> | |||
::We constantly make poor decisions, knowing that they will<br> | |||
::hurt us and isolate us, because these decisions allow us<br> | |||
::to sustain our stories of who we are. When we are angry,<br> | |||
::we choose to act in anger, even if we know we could de-<br> | |||
::escalate. When we are wounded, we make the choices a<br> | |||
::wounded person would make, even when we know these<br> | |||
::choices will deepen the wound. Who would do otherwise? | |||